i am so happy to know that someone out there actually read my blog, and kind enough to email me, and let me know what he/she thinks about it. who ever you are, thank you so much! :D

i'm so happy today, ficky called and while we're on the phone, we're just absolutely free to act as though nobody's there to judge our behaviour or our stupidity. i feel comfortable, finally ... after all of those times of feeling alone [why!! why can anybody [myself to be precise], let myself be such an idiotic moron!!] i log in to friendster and i got this silly -a couple of- questions on my bulletin board. then he said that he want to fill it in, so i typed it down with his answers. the answers ...well, it kinda surprise me and made me feel happy at the same time.

but in the other hand, there's still some people that occupy my mind at this moment. jedi, and pay. the later one is so kind, patient, and absolutely shy. the first one is on his phase of feeling that he might be alone along this time. but both of them really made me think again about me and my decisions.

[dramatic pause]

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shhhiiizzzzz ... i need some rest!